My Weight Loss Journey.

So I weighed myself today. NO ME GUSTA. Just busted my ass on the dreaded treadmill. 

The apt complex I live in haven’t given us our new access cards to the clubhouse so I can’t go workout there early in the morning like I want. I tend to workout more consistently if I can do it early in the morning like before 9. Is that weird? No.

I need to kick myself in gear man. 

So I’m 5 lbs from losing 50 lbs. I’m not gonna lie, I’ll probably cry. I hate crying but I’ve cried when I’ve hit a milestone and then get pissed b/c I’m crying. I think I just get overwhelmed that as many times as I’ve tried and given up I’m actually making progress. 

Like I actually feel like I can do this. My doctor told me I could just lose 75 and be okay if I keep working out and eating healthy (which is still the struggle). But if I’m going to get that close to 100, I’m going to do it. It’s weird that I never thought I could even lose 25 and now at almost 50, I actually feel like I can lose 100 lbs. It doesn’t sound as far fetch as it use to. I actually feel like I can do this! 

I was joking with my friend that once I lose 75 lbs no one is going to be able to tell me anything. If— I mean when I lose 100, that will definitely be the case haha.

I went to a buffet for the first time in ages today after church. I felt like all 45 lbs I lost came back the minute I walked into the building. I felt so overwhelmed too. Something that use to be so regular to me is now so strange.

So….

Apparently I’ve lost a bit more weight. 45 to be exact. Yes I am excited, but I also don’t believe it. I have some new jeans that I bought and they were a little snug. So seeing that number afterwards made me just not believe it. But I weighed myself this morning and got the same number I got last night. 

I’m just gonna be happy about it. 5 lbs away from 50. WOAH. 

So….

Yep I’m horrid at updating this thing. I’m actually am putting off my dreadful trip to the treadmill by updating this right now. I HATE the treadmill with a passion. This another reason I hate winter; it’s too cold to go walk. 

An interesting thing my doctor told me this week that if I got down to 250 and still kept eating right and kept the physical activity up I’d be alright. If I’m bigger than someone that is doing what I’m doing, I’m still okay because I’m living a healthy lifestyle. Now, even with that being said, I still desire to get down at least to 225. That would be 100 lbs! But even though that is my ultimate goal, I’m focusing on getting to 250 at the moment. That actually is my next goal. That would be 75lbs lost when I get there. 

I’ve given up the idea of being super thin because not only would I look strange, I like curves. I just want to be an average and healthy size for me. I don’t want to be as thin as my mom who is a size 4 now. She can do that, I don’t want to do that. I have no desire to be that small. I just want to be healthy. 

So I feel that I can hit that 250 before my birthday in April. I would actually love to be closer to the losing 100lbs point by then, but who knows. I’m just not gonna stop trying. I’ve slacked off a bit the last week or so but it’s time to kick it in gear. I’m not satisfied yet. 

So yeah I haven’t updated this in a while and I’m terrible with this thing. So I’ve lost 41 lbs. I’m going up and down a bit since I’ve been at that number but I’m still working hard. I want to do something different in my diet. My diet is still a big issue for me but I’m still walking and I’ve given up cokes for the most part. I’ve been drinking more water but there’s always more I can do. I just need some suggestions.

But I’m starting to notice some changes now. And people asking me for suggestions and advice is so weird. Especially when the person is in better shape than I am. It’s nice to have some success with this and it’s nice that other people are noticing too.